I spent a lot of time cleaning, editing, and rearranging the room once occupied by kittens. I hung a new pair of blinds in the windows that filter the fall light beautifully. There's a soft new rug on the floor. I made a little window seat and covered it with a comfy quilt and the girls have really enjoyed having this new vantage point that looks into the backyard and vegetable beds. The squirrels are working overtime right now so they've been offering lots of entertainment for Wylla and Charlene.
This room is a comfortable space and we've all been spending a lot of time inside of it. It's very peaceful and serene.
We are all doing fine.
Of course, we were all very sad about all that happened, but we're moving away from that and now we're in the "well, what's next?" phase of processing. And honestly, I don't know what's next.
When Panleuk enters your home, there is a mandatory one-year period of waiting before you can foster again. Even after a thorough cleaning, the virus can live in porous surfaces for up to a year, so we're sidelined for now to prevent future litters from becoming infected.
But there's a very big part of me that's thinking we might be through with fostering. I'm not 100% sure, and not making up my mind about the future right this very moment, but this is where I am currently leaning.
And if that is the case, what will happen here on this blog? I do want to continue something here, but I don't know what shape that will take yet. I will figure that out. I know some might have ideas of what direction I should go, but I feel I need to find this on my own -- considering first how what I do impacts those closest to me first.
For now, I'll continue to share stories and photos here. I am going to post less though -- without kittens, content isn't as plentiful. I always struggle to fill five days when we're between litters or taking breaks. I would rather do fewer posts of quality than five posts of filler.
SO, that's where I'm at. Which really isn't any further along at all, but I'm not racing to make decisions right now. When a clear path appears, I'll start heading down it and a decent clip.
Thank you for your patience as I think things through.
And thank you again for all of your love and support -- the comments, sweet notes in the mail, emails, flowers, thoughtful gifts, and donations in memory of our precious Waddells. We appreciate you so much and we love you.
I'll wrap things up today with a batch of photos of dear Wylla basking in the lovely fall light. She's been so happy spending time in the room. I hope you all can find as much peace in your day.
xoxo, Laurie